Ok, I'm totally new here, and am so thankful I found this forum.
So here it goes. I've read some of the posts in the spouses section and read one about a wife w/PTSD and her behavior and omg, it was like I was reading my life...interesting.
My dh and I have been married for 9 yrs, 10 next year, we have 4 children ages 5, 3, 1, and 1month. I'll cut to the chase. I am thinking of separating from him because of his ill behavior toward me. I believe in God and so does dh, so I grapple with the Biblical issues of it being "right" to leave or not.
He has stated we live in two different realities because we cannot talk about my PTSD, which I had before we were married. I started counseling in Nov 2005 and got pregnant Jan 2006 and quit counseling...Now today my baby is 1 month old and I am considering going back to counseling because I want to get better, I want to know how to cope. I need better coping skills. My dilema is when I start counseling I dont want all the fighting to start again. He says I need to go on medication and he calls me crazy. But I know my feelings are real and they do exist. So, I thought about getting a legal separation while working through my stuff. I told him we cannot talk about my PTSD because he addresses the issue with no love, no compassion, no encouragement and no support of my feelings. So, that behavior of course makes me want nothing to do with him, and run as far away from him as I can so I will stop being hurt by his words and actions (is this "normal") I get excited just thinking about seperating so I dont have to live like this anymore. However, I fear once I get healthy and learn better coping skills, I wont come back to his abusive ways.
Well, thats all for now. I appreciate any advice, suggestions, or comments from those who have more experience than me.
Thanks
So here it goes. I've read some of the posts in the spouses section and read one about a wife w/PTSD and her behavior and omg, it was like I was reading my life...interesting.
My dh and I have been married for 9 yrs, 10 next year, we have 4 children ages 5, 3, 1, and 1month. I'll cut to the chase. I am thinking of separating from him because of his ill behavior toward me. I believe in God and so does dh, so I grapple with the Biblical issues of it being "right" to leave or not.
He has stated we live in two different realities because we cannot talk about my PTSD, which I had before we were married. I started counseling in Nov 2005 and got pregnant Jan 2006 and quit counseling...Now today my baby is 1 month old and I am considering going back to counseling because I want to get better, I want to know how to cope. I need better coping skills. My dilema is when I start counseling I dont want all the fighting to start again. He says I need to go on medication and he calls me crazy. But I know my feelings are real and they do exist. So, I thought about getting a legal separation while working through my stuff. I told him we cannot talk about my PTSD because he addresses the issue with no love, no compassion, no encouragement and no support of my feelings. So, that behavior of course makes me want nothing to do with him, and run as far away from him as I can so I will stop being hurt by his words and actions (is this "normal") I get excited just thinking about seperating so I dont have to live like this anymore. However, I fear once I get healthy and learn better coping skills, I wont come back to his abusive ways.
Well, thats all for now. I appreciate any advice, suggestions, or comments from those who have more experience than me.
Thanks