I've Thought there wouldn't be a forum like this and i thought i was just me that suffers with this until now.
The past week has been every hard for me, The doctors changed my meds so many times i haven't slept for days and this anger appears from no where, It feels like there's someone else inside me trying to take over me. I have been fighting this since for 13yrs now by myself. I'm now 25 I cant do it.
When my mum got divorced to my dad cause he would hurt me so much i begged my mum not to go to work one day, ever since That day i blame myself for them splitting up.
1 year later i was put into care and spoke to mum twice a year, the anger has been with me since the day i went to care, i hated everyone and anything. 6 years ago i let this anger go relating to me going to prison for 9 months, Cause i wanted to hurt people to block my pain. After the worse 9 months of my life i was getting all upset and crying everywhere, Guilt of what i done to people.
Now the Anger has came Back out in me and sometimes i just feel worthless cause i know its there and it makes me so upset :(
this anger is trying to get out of me really bad and i fighting him so hard, i have had 16 hrs sleep in a week, i hope theres someone on here that goes though what i do because its driving me insane.
The past week has been every hard for me, The doctors changed my meds so many times i haven't slept for days and this anger appears from no where, It feels like there's someone else inside me trying to take over me. I have been fighting this since for 13yrs now by myself. I'm now 25 I cant do it.
When my mum got divorced to my dad cause he would hurt me so much i begged my mum not to go to work one day, ever since That day i blame myself for them splitting up.
1 year later i was put into care and spoke to mum twice a year, the anger has been with me since the day i went to care, i hated everyone and anything. 6 years ago i let this anger go relating to me going to prison for 9 months, Cause i wanted to hurt people to block my pain. After the worse 9 months of my life i was getting all upset and crying everywhere, Guilt of what i done to people.
Now the Anger has came Back out in me and sometimes i just feel worthless cause i know its there and it makes me so upset :(
this anger is trying to get out of me really bad and i fighting him so hard, i have had 16 hrs sleep in a week, i hope theres someone on here that goes though what i do because its driving me insane.