Brandy0175
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I'm engaged to a medically retired Army Ranger. We are getting married on September 17th. He has severe ptsd, as well as a back injury and tbi. Over the past year he has steadily declined. Winter was terrible. He was in a wheelchair. Summer got better. Actually went pretty well compared to winter. We've been trying to find a doctor to help his with his back. He has a failed fusion and nerve compression in his spine. It's been hard to get help.
Over a week ago he had a nightmare and vaulted straight up in bed. Ever since his back and pelvis have started to really hurt again. Severely. When he hurts, he gets scary. He's depressed, very dark. Snappy and irritable. I've had two brain surgeries, and am no stranger to chronic pain. But he is a Ranger. He gets scary.
I am in a constant state of anxiety now. Terrified of going through what we did last winter. It is so hard on everyone. I have two kids. It's hard.
When he has his pain under control, he is the best. He treats us all so well.
And it's not like he yells at us or hits us. He gets sarcastic and cana tease kind of mean, but he is always good to us. I don't know how to explain why I feel so afraid. I'm dealing with this by myself. I have no one to talk to. He is very private and so I don't talk to my family about it much. The stress is getting to me. I don't know how much of my anxiety is just stress and how much is his ptsd and injury and depression. I love him very much. I know he loves me and the kids. I want to help him. I just don't know how anymore. I need someone to talk to. I need help. I can't get him to go to the doctor. He just wants to be left alone. It's very hard when he's like this. Does anyone relate?
Over a week ago he had a nightmare and vaulted straight up in bed. Ever since his back and pelvis have started to really hurt again. Severely. When he hurts, he gets scary. He's depressed, very dark. Snappy and irritable. I've had two brain surgeries, and am no stranger to chronic pain. But he is a Ranger. He gets scary.
I am in a constant state of anxiety now. Terrified of going through what we did last winter. It is so hard on everyone. I have two kids. It's hard.
When he has his pain under control, he is the best. He treats us all so well.
And it's not like he yells at us or hits us. He gets sarcastic and cana tease kind of mean, but he is always good to us. I don't know how to explain why I feel so afraid. I'm dealing with this by myself. I have no one to talk to. He is very private and so I don't talk to my family about it much. The stress is getting to me. I don't know how much of my anxiety is just stress and how much is his ptsd and injury and depression. I love him very much. I know he loves me and the kids. I want to help him. I just don't know how anymore. I need someone to talk to. I need help. I can't get him to go to the doctor. He just wants to be left alone. It's very hard when he's like this. Does anyone relate?