Earthcuddledragon
New Here
Hi all,
I ended up starting to go over trauma stuff with my therapist on Thursday and it's not going well for me after. I keep getting the anxiety over "they're gonna find out and hurt me" even though 'they' haven't been around me in 8 years and my grandparents (who adopted me away from the other family members) have never tolerated them even getting close to hurting me again.
I gave up trying to ignore the urge to make a small place to kinda hide in last night and it actually helped a lot, but today it does nothing. So I'm stuck with no way to get the anxiety to ease up again.
I can try to do stuff to ground like counting be it numbers letters or colors, but I can't focus enough to go past a few from starting. All the other ways I normally use to try to lower it and one hopefully works haven't, mostly distractions and stuff strong on the 5 senses.
I feel kinda stuck. I have around 5 minutes of focus at a time before anxiety gets too distracting to keep where I was at/end up zoning out but still hurting more from anxiety. I just want it to go away and everything go back to the numb it was a few months ago. I don't like being shaky I don't like the stuff that comes up thinking because of anxiety
I ended up starting to go over trauma stuff with my therapist on Thursday and it's not going well for me after. I keep getting the anxiety over "they're gonna find out and hurt me" even though 'they' haven't been around me in 8 years and my grandparents (who adopted me away from the other family members) have never tolerated them even getting close to hurting me again.
I gave up trying to ignore the urge to make a small place to kinda hide in last night and it actually helped a lot, but today it does nothing. So I'm stuck with no way to get the anxiety to ease up again.
I can try to do stuff to ground like counting be it numbers letters or colors, but I can't focus enough to go past a few from starting. All the other ways I normally use to try to lower it and one hopefully works haven't, mostly distractions and stuff strong on the 5 senses.
I feel kinda stuck. I have around 5 minutes of focus at a time before anxiety gets too distracting to keep where I was at/end up zoning out but still hurting more from anxiety. I just want it to go away and everything go back to the numb it was a few months ago. I don't like being shaky I don't like the stuff that comes up thinking because of anxiety