Very, very wise words. To the external world I look like the most competent person ever. I advocated (pre PTSD) for everyone I knew. Except me. During the PTSD I advocated for me, but yes, I got hooked into these endless battles (a distraction?) and was fighting the 'good fight'. I think I got healthier with this whole concept when I realized that it was eating my energy and ruining my life. As well, when I understood the way the system worked. I mean, systems are put into place, as is the dogma attached to those systems. But nobody but the system wins. So rather than fighting against this invisible force, I learned other ways around things that I thought were 'unfair' or whatever word I used at the time. I actually notice quite a few people who have this pit bull behaviour these days. Like being caught in a hamster wheel. I am not 'all there' yet when it comes to not biting when it comes to this type of thing. I will be watching this thread, as I feel it is extremely relevant and valuable. Thank you.