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VioletButterfly
MyPTSD Pro
Thank you. I needed validation for why this just wasn't safe for me at this point in time. I don't know if exposure therapy is every going to be safe for me. I can't detach like she instructed and "skim" therapy. It's counter-intuitive for me at this point in time. It didn't make sense to me at the time and still doesn't. I raised questions then and still am now. I wonder if this is yet another therapist who just doesn't fit the bill for me. I've been through 4 so far this year and it just doesn't seem to be right. I've questioned her suitability from the get-go and now I'm just sure of it. She does have several negative attitudes, especially as it relates to narcissists and my parenting/bosses. She rants on it sometimes. It's off-putting. I know some folks are narcissistic and I've had the unfortunate experience of dealing with quite a few; however, I'm not going to the extremes that she does. It has raised several questions in my mind as to whether I'm with the right therapist from day one. I need someone who listens and who is chilled - not someone who goes on tirades of her own devising and who spends a lot of my sessions giving speeches in this regard or prattling on about her own life.
Despite all of that, I went in asking for stabilization and coping mechanisms, and I'm given this assignment? It doesn't make sense. I wish I could find a T who was careful and looking out for my best interests. You know, a professional.
I'm afraid of being alone. I feel like I need someone to guide me. Time to look upward and pray for guidance, I guess. I can do this. I can heal and I can maintain. I don't need a human to tell me who I am or where I am. Support can take different forms. I think I'll give Al Anon and ALZ support groups a chance. Plus, my MD is going to be my accountability partner, so she will be there at least 1 x per month to check in. I just wish I had a partner or friends. Life kind of is lonely right now. Oh well. Thanks so much. Time to get on with it, right?
Do you think it's worth another conversation this Saturday? VB
Despite all of that, I went in asking for stabilization and coping mechanisms, and I'm given this assignment? It doesn't make sense. I wish I could find a T who was careful and looking out for my best interests. You know, a professional.
I'm afraid of being alone. I feel like I need someone to guide me. Time to look upward and pray for guidance, I guess. I can do this. I can heal and I can maintain. I don't need a human to tell me who I am or where I am. Support can take different forms. I think I'll give Al Anon and ALZ support groups a chance. Plus, my MD is going to be my accountability partner, so she will be there at least 1 x per month to check in. I just wish I had a partner or friends. Life kind of is lonely right now. Oh well. Thanks so much. Time to get on with it, right?
Do you think it's worth another conversation this Saturday? VB