Due to circumstances and behaviour beyond Bec's control she has decided to take a breather from the forum for a few weeks. I believe that she is feeling very overwhelmed(re-traumatized) by posting her diary publicly and the reactions to what she feels and has said. Some of the reactions that have been directed at Bec have been way beyond what is called for. That is the reason for her "vacation". Negative comments based on what she has experienced in her life and how she is now reacting to it is not what I feel she needs. What she needs is help to cope with them(positive support). As I have stated in my intro I have been her friend for almost twenty years and this is the first time I have ever heard of her openly discussing her past which to me is a huge step to her recovery and I also understand the need to crash before you can climb. This is the first time that I have known her to take control of her "world" and what is right for her and her son and not just bow down. Kudos to you, Bec! And thank you to all of you that have given her the strength by way of words and positive reinforcement.