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Hi folks I've just got 7 weeks clean time under my belt after smoking cannabis very heavily for 34 years. I turned to the stuff as a teenager to cope with and survive being incested by my older brother and his friends at the time. It made me psychotic while on it and also from coming off it. It's now completely out of my system and I'm now firmly back in touch with reality. Far be it for me to tell anyone what to do or not to do as the case may be but after the hell my choice to smoke it has put me and my family through I just want to warn people that it's a dangerous drug especially to us folks with PTSD who may already have a vulnerability to false beliefs and cognitive distortions because of early trauma and maternal loss and/or deprivation due to abuse in the family such as I suffered as a young child. You might think like I used to that it is helping you deal with the stress these early extremely negative experiences bring on but actually it's the bloody worst thing you can indulge in. It's an halluinogen like acid or shrooms you see. It makes the real seem unreal and the unreal seem real. Like one very long bad trip. And the worst of it is you're not even aware that you're delusional or hallucinating when it's in your brain and body. At least that's how it was for me strictly personally speaking. Others may have different experiences and if so then that's great each to their own. But it was a f*cking nightmare for me and my family. I'm so glad I'm over my psychosis now but it was a close run thing I almost ended up in the nuthouse because of it. And what I've lost through my atrocious behaviour in it doesn't bloody bear thinking about. My grown kids will probably never speak to me ever again because of it. Just a friendly warning to anyone thinking of trying it or who is still on it themselves. It's a slippery road to be on and may well end in disaster for you. Like it did for me. I would hate anyone here to land up as loony as I did through smoking this shit. It's not a medicine it's a bloody poison. Ok will shut up now. This is just a friendly warning and information about it won through bitter first hand experience. Don't land up like me please. It's just not bloody worth it folks trust me.
Cheers all
Crazydiamond47
Cheers all
Crazydiamond47