DogwoodTree
MyPTSD Pro
Is it possible to have BPD without much emotional expression at all?
Like...does the disorder identify internal thinking/feeling patterns, or external expression only?
Internally, my emotions are all over the place. BPD traits...some of them...describe my internal experience fairly well. But I don't let it out. I'm afraid of letting any of this stuff spill out on anyone else, and I nearly always keep everything locked tight inside (anxiety comes out quite a bit, and occasionally I get mad at my kids, but not like raging).
People close to me have recently described me as cerebral, independent, reflective, quiet, self-conscious. This doesn't sound like BPD, but then, I keep so much locked inside so no one has to see it. I'm afraid to let out any emotions because I don't want to burden people with my inner reality.
Like...does the disorder identify internal thinking/feeling patterns, or external expression only?
Internally, my emotions are all over the place. BPD traits...some of them...describe my internal experience fairly well. But I don't let it out. I'm afraid of letting any of this stuff spill out on anyone else, and I nearly always keep everything locked tight inside (anxiety comes out quite a bit, and occasionally I get mad at my kids, but not like raging).
People close to me have recently described me as cerebral, independent, reflective, quiet, self-conscious. This doesn't sound like BPD, but then, I keep so much locked inside so no one has to see it. I'm afraid to let out any emotions because I don't want to burden people with my inner reality.