theshadowoftheliving
MyPTSD Pro
First, no implication at all that DID isn't real. It definitley is and that isn't my question here.
My therapist is having me try to "get to know my parts." Terrifying. The trip inside is giving me visions of little versions of myself huddled in corners and crying. Conversations that pop into my head. Voices that float up and declare that my body doesn't belong to them. conversations that happen inside and moments where I feel so little and alone and my body continues to operate in whatever setting it is in, independent of my desire to influence or control my actions.
I've been doing a lot of reading on dissociation and structural dissocoation. But. I'm terrified that this education (because sometimes it just fits my experience so well) is actually just suggestive to me. What if I'm overreacting? What if the reading is actually just prompting me to see something that isn't really there?
Can I accidentally trick myself into believing in parts and divisions of my self that don't actually exist? And how do I know the difference?
My therapist is having me try to "get to know my parts." Terrifying. The trip inside is giving me visions of little versions of myself huddled in corners and crying. Conversations that pop into my head. Voices that float up and declare that my body doesn't belong to them. conversations that happen inside and moments where I feel so little and alone and my body continues to operate in whatever setting it is in, independent of my desire to influence or control my actions.
I've been doing a lot of reading on dissociation and structural dissocoation. But. I'm terrified that this education (because sometimes it just fits my experience so well) is actually just suggestive to me. What if I'm overreacting? What if the reading is actually just prompting me to see something that isn't really there?
Can I accidentally trick myself into believing in parts and divisions of my self that don't actually exist? And how do I know the difference?