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I've been developing complex PTSD for a long time through many, many events and also have had very extreme insomnia my entire life even before PTSD. I frequent can't sleep and have very chaotic patterns where I'll be awake for more that 24 hours then sleep for 2 hours then wake up again and a lot of weird things like that. No medicine has ever helped me and I've tried everything from laying in the dark for hours to sleep tests to exercise.
This alone and in combination with depression, social anxiety and PTSD has made it so I can't work and am on disability. The disability is a good thing because being homeless is a very scary thought.
The problem is I want to work but am terrified of losing my disability and really don't think I can. Any new income has to be reported. I barely have any money and something always comes up like last September Colorado had huge flooding and any money my mom and I tried to save was gone and we both had to move. Even with FEMA's assistance we were several thousand dollars in debt from that. I'm very fortunate to have enough money to get food and not be homeless from disability but the whole situation is extremely discouraging and depressing.
I don't know how to meet people in a dating situation when I have no job and PTSD. I tried to sign up for a "free" online PTSD dating site but it ended up that the free trial lacked basic functions like receiving messages so I deleted that account. That was another extremely depressing step in a long line of failed attempts to find people in my life.
All my past friends drifted away after high school, I never could attend collage and I can't work. I can't ever be rested for events and have no money. I feel despairing and hopeless and am terrified of ending up completely alone and dying on the street.
This alone and in combination with depression, social anxiety and PTSD has made it so I can't work and am on disability. The disability is a good thing because being homeless is a very scary thought.
The problem is I want to work but am terrified of losing my disability and really don't think I can. Any new income has to be reported. I barely have any money and something always comes up like last September Colorado had huge flooding and any money my mom and I tried to save was gone and we both had to move. Even with FEMA's assistance we were several thousand dollars in debt from that. I'm very fortunate to have enough money to get food and not be homeless from disability but the whole situation is extremely discouraging and depressing.
I don't know how to meet people in a dating situation when I have no job and PTSD. I tried to sign up for a "free" online PTSD dating site but it ended up that the free trial lacked basic functions like receiving messages so I deleted that account. That was another extremely depressing step in a long line of failed attempts to find people in my life.
All my past friends drifted away after high school, I never could attend collage and I can't work. I can't ever be rested for events and have no money. I feel despairing and hopeless and am terrified of ending up completely alone and dying on the street.
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