Pakadlangitok
Confident
As I posted before I am recovering from a car wreck. I already had complex PSTD from a lot of abuse. Anyway, a lady was texting and hit me at 55mph and caused a lot of injuries.
Right before impact, I thought of so many things. But the one thing that stuck with me was, "FINALLY!" because I thought I was dead. I feel very bad to have thought THAT right before I was about to die.
Well,
I survived and now have a lot of pain physical and emotional. There will be things that cannot be fixed.
I worked SO HARD with the PTSD before, therapy, working hard, climbing a mountain and then? BAM. Half of what I did has come to a stop. I used to run to blow off anxiety. STOPPED. I used to read to clear my head. Eyes are hurt. I cannot even breathe because lungs were hurt.
I do not want to die and I did not want to die that night......I just want to feel better and now my chances of that are slimmer than ever.
Any advise will be welcome.
Thank you.
Right before impact, I thought of so many things. But the one thing that stuck with me was, "FINALLY!" because I thought I was dead. I feel very bad to have thought THAT right before I was about to die.
Well,
I survived and now have a lot of pain physical and emotional. There will be things that cannot be fixed.
I worked SO HARD with the PTSD before, therapy, working hard, climbing a mountain and then? BAM. Half of what I did has come to a stop. I used to run to blow off anxiety. STOPPED. I used to read to clear my head. Eyes are hurt. I cannot even breathe because lungs were hurt.
I do not want to die and I did not want to die that night......I just want to feel better and now my chances of that are slimmer than ever.
Any advise will be welcome.
Thank you.