Are there any good books on the subject? Something I can read that is a little deeper than just "googling" it. I just started my first session a week ago and found myself crying myself to sleep more than once. I'm wondering what the hell I got myself into. Hurts. Alot. I feel like I'm crying more for the safety of my own soul than the pain of what I experienced. I feel like I'm being ripped apart. I guess this is what its like to be in touch with your own humanity. When you are trained to be a soldier, you stuff your humanity in a box. And keep it there. This really sucks.