violet1234
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Hi, I just joined here. About 6 months ago I went to a therapist for first time ever, and was just about scared shitless and ran away as quick as I could. About 2 months went by where the reasons I initially wanted to pursue therapy became worse, and so I went back. I have since been in therapy for about 4 months and am extremely confused on what I have been experiencing.
Some background on why I'm in therapy....I was in a bad situation for about 10 years of my life. It became so that physical abuse was an accepted part of my day. I hid this from a lot of people including my family. It's as if recently I just took my first breath out of the situation and all of the stuff that happened those years is running through my mind. I'm about to graduate school, and so rationally I understand that big changes are bound to exaggerate any underlying issue I have.
The thing is that in therapy I completely suck at it..... Sometimes I don't talk for a good 20 minutes. When we do talk its usually about the lack of talking! I like my therapist and think she has her wits about her, I just don't know if I am wasting my and/or her time. I have been having terrible nightmares and just recently I told her about it via email. She said that she will "hold on to your info and insights for our next session." What do you guys think about that? Thanks for any response
Some background on why I'm in therapy....I was in a bad situation for about 10 years of my life. It became so that physical abuse was an accepted part of my day. I hid this from a lot of people including my family. It's as if recently I just took my first breath out of the situation and all of the stuff that happened those years is running through my mind. I'm about to graduate school, and so rationally I understand that big changes are bound to exaggerate any underlying issue I have.
The thing is that in therapy I completely suck at it..... Sometimes I don't talk for a good 20 minutes. When we do talk its usually about the lack of talking! I like my therapist and think she has her wits about her, I just don't know if I am wasting my and/or her time. I have been having terrible nightmares and just recently I told her about it via email. She said that she will "hold on to your info and insights for our next session." What do you guys think about that? Thanks for any response