Copper Princess
Confident
I have been struggling so bad lately with many things. I have always had a hard time crying in therapy and today I could not stop myself. My therapist cried too. She said she knew it was bad but did not realize how broken I really felt. I am upset with myself because although I am sure people will say it is ok to cry that is not how it has been with me. Even as a child I got whipped with a belt if my mom felt I was crying for no reason. As I got older I was punished by boyfriends if I cried and called names so crying is not something I can do without feeling like I have done something wrong. She told me several times that she appreciated me letting her in so can help me. I am better at crying alone but I appreciate her not spitting on me, hitting me, yelling at or anything like that.