amanda3of4
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Hello all,
I was diagnosed with CPTSD in February and am still learning what this means.
Today I went to church and it suddenly occurred to me that every time I come to church I have panic attacks, I become angry and irritable, I become paranoid and think something aweful is about to happen.... and then it occurred to me that church is one of the places where my mother was most likely to abuse. She was very concerned about her image, and at church she was much more likely to focus on us (me and my siblings). And to boot, the church always seemed to agree woth her actions and to approve of her.
It frightens me to think this, but I think church has become a trigger. Is that possible? It's not the same building as when I was younger, but it doesn't seem to matter, always the same symptoms. What can I do to combat this? Will it ever go away?
Thanks for your help,
I was diagnosed with CPTSD in February and am still learning what this means.
Today I went to church and it suddenly occurred to me that every time I come to church I have panic attacks, I become angry and irritable, I become paranoid and think something aweful is about to happen.... and then it occurred to me that church is one of the places where my mother was most likely to abuse. She was very concerned about her image, and at church she was much more likely to focus on us (me and my siblings). And to boot, the church always seemed to agree woth her actions and to approve of her.
It frightens me to think this, but I think church has become a trigger. Is that possible? It's not the same building as when I was younger, but it doesn't seem to matter, always the same symptoms. What can I do to combat this? Will it ever go away?
Thanks for your help,