Noisytulips
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When puberty hit and my hormones took control of my life, I could only focus on two scenarios the first was my crush being in a closet or something and watching me have sex with someone else. The second and most prominent was me with two guys which eventually turned into more. I currently find it repulsive but think it's odd for a 12 year old to want these things. Is it normal to seek out the same thing that traumatized you? I was very promiscuous throughout all of high school and got no pleasure from it, it just made me feel wanted or something. Why did I do this?