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I am terrified of men. Even when I become friends with a man (this doesn't happen very often), I fear him. I am always, always tense around men. If I'm in public and I notice a man seeming to notice me, my heart starts to race, my head starts to spin and I feel very unsafe.
I am terrified of authority figures and people who exude dominance. I freeze up around said people and my 'guilt complex' goes into overdrive - I become convinced that I've done something wrong and that I am going to be severely punished, scorned, ridiculed or verbally abused, even when I have no evidence to back that up.
I am very timid and afraid around new people, especially if it's in a group setting. I withdraw into myself, become painfully self-conscious, painfully self-aware, hypervigilant, untrusting of everybody. I feel very unsafe in these kinds of settings and situations. Self-hatred usually overwhelms me as well, because I know I shouldn't be reacting the way I do. I feel so stupid and useless in social settings where I don't know people. It's not uncommon for me to depersonalise. I usually do everything I can to avoid situations like this, and if I can't get out of it I'm almost always filled with a sense of dread that turns me into internalised anxious knots.
I become easily irritated and agitated in crowds. Anxiety goes up, usually experience irrational anger, irrational impatience, become very jumpy and hyper-alert, feel hot and flustered.
Hearing a phone ring, whether it's mine or someone else's, sends me into a panic. I have no idea why. Same goes for doorbells ringing or doorbell sounds, car horns, motorcycle engines, and knocking on the door. All of those sounds cause immediate spike in anxiety and I usually have the immediate instinct to run and hide for some reason. Even if I hear a phone ringing or a doorbell ringing in a movie or TV show, I react like that.
I'm almost always very tired, drained and aching after dealing with any of the above-mentioned situations. Usually have a headache and usually have to lie down in complete quiet and zone out uninterrupted. If I get overstimulated, I become restless and anxious and on edge, which is why I need quiet time after dealing with stressful situations. It frustrates the hell out of me. I can't stand the way basic social interactions can cause me to crash for a few days afterwards, leaving me feeling scattered and unable to focus on even the simplest of tasks around the house.
I am terrified of authority figures and people who exude dominance. I freeze up around said people and my 'guilt complex' goes into overdrive - I become convinced that I've done something wrong and that I am going to be severely punished, scorned, ridiculed or verbally abused, even when I have no evidence to back that up.
I am very timid and afraid around new people, especially if it's in a group setting. I withdraw into myself, become painfully self-conscious, painfully self-aware, hypervigilant, untrusting of everybody. I feel very unsafe in these kinds of settings and situations. Self-hatred usually overwhelms me as well, because I know I shouldn't be reacting the way I do. I feel so stupid and useless in social settings where I don't know people. It's not uncommon for me to depersonalise. I usually do everything I can to avoid situations like this, and if I can't get out of it I'm almost always filled with a sense of dread that turns me into internalised anxious knots.
I become easily irritated and agitated in crowds. Anxiety goes up, usually experience irrational anger, irrational impatience, become very jumpy and hyper-alert, feel hot and flustered.
Hearing a phone ring, whether it's mine or someone else's, sends me into a panic. I have no idea why. Same goes for doorbells ringing or doorbell sounds, car horns, motorcycle engines, and knocking on the door. All of those sounds cause immediate spike in anxiety and I usually have the immediate instinct to run and hide for some reason. Even if I hear a phone ringing or a doorbell ringing in a movie or TV show, I react like that.
I'm almost always very tired, drained and aching after dealing with any of the above-mentioned situations. Usually have a headache and usually have to lie down in complete quiet and zone out uninterrupted. If I get overstimulated, I become restless and anxious and on edge, which is why I need quiet time after dealing with stressful situations. It frustrates the hell out of me. I can't stand the way basic social interactions can cause me to crash for a few days afterwards, leaving me feeling scattered and unable to focus on even the simplest of tasks around the house.