I started seeing a new therapist recently. I'm wondering how much I can tell her about how I feel. If I don't, she won't understand how things are. If I do... I worry she'll call a mental health team on me. I don't know how she'd react. My trauma included being locked in and I just can't be in hospital.
My last therapist was shocked at the level of my depression, but for me it's normal. I can't kill myself because of my beliefs but it's my favourite fantasy. In fact, I've been wondering if I'm allowed to have "being dead" as my safe place. I like visualising absolute nothingness. If I was dead, nothing could harm me, right, so what could be safer? (It's just a fantasy. I believe things won't all stop when I die. I wish...)
I know I won't do anything, but I don't know if she'll believe that. She can break confidentiality and take action if she thinks I'm a danger to myself.
How much do other people say?
My last therapist was shocked at the level of my depression, but for me it's normal. I can't kill myself because of my beliefs but it's my favourite fantasy. In fact, I've been wondering if I'm allowed to have "being dead" as my safe place. I like visualising absolute nothingness. If I was dead, nothing could harm me, right, so what could be safer? (It's just a fantasy. I believe things won't all stop when I die. I wish...)
I know I won't do anything, but I don't know if she'll believe that. She can break confidentiality and take action if she thinks I'm a danger to myself.
How much do other people say?