This flashback or ??
When I'm lifting off and out of the here and now I'm not just leaving the present I am skimming the memories and scenes like floating down a hall looking into each room and there I am with the year or years of life once lived. 'Sometimes viewing people and places I've lived a hundred times but seeing things I've never noticed before or actually feeling what that image is bringing to light. I sometimes get confused as to why I didn't notice certain things or why I seemed so unemotional or why nobody seemed to react the way that would seem "normal".
Often I shake my head and move away quickly and there is another room with another set of years and on and on. I some times can stop or keep going but I don't know what I want to do, I get scare if I'm by myself unless I allow myself to go in angry so I at least have protection. If I go in curious I always come out hurting and in serious pain.
Am I suppose to enter these unafraid? Or am I not suppose to enter them at all?
When I'm lifting off and out of the here and now I'm not just leaving the present I am skimming the memories and scenes like floating down a hall looking into each room and there I am with the year or years of life once lived. 'Sometimes viewing people and places I've lived a hundred times but seeing things I've never noticed before or actually feeling what that image is bringing to light. I sometimes get confused as to why I didn't notice certain things or why I seemed so unemotional or why nobody seemed to react the way that would seem "normal".
Often I shake my head and move away quickly and there is another room with another set of years and on and on. I some times can stop or keep going but I don't know what I want to do, I get scare if I'm by myself unless I allow myself to go in angry so I at least have protection. If I go in curious I always come out hurting and in serious pain.
Am I suppose to enter these unafraid? Or am I not suppose to enter them at all?