J_trustno1
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I don't know the right place for this question. So here is what I'm going to write.
Yesterday I went to the mall to see if new season clothes have arrived and if I could buy some winter clothes. I also went to checkout if there was any special on lipstick (i usually wear very little of light color, similar to color lip balm leaves). I couldn't find much in the first retail store.
Then I thought I'd check the pharmacy. As I reached the pharmacy I asked one of the ladies about lipstick without knowing she was promoting a certain brand. There are different brands and different ladies are in charge of a brand and i unfortunately landed on her checkpoint. She was a Chinese lady. So when I asked her for a lipstick so showed me this bright red lipstick and then she said she'll put on my lips. Therefore I had to sit there and let her play with my face. While she was putting on lipstick, she was telling me how beautiful my lips and skin was. She then went on to tell me that if I had some makeup on I would look beautiful. So I asked her if I didn't look beautiful without it? She then laughed it off and told me that i look pretty.
She then asked me if I had extra time next time I come she'll do full face makeup on my face. I said, do it now not that I was desperate for makeup because I know that the chemicals in those products are very dangerous for skin and layers of foundation doesn't make you look beautiful. Anyway, I went with it and decided to be her guinea pig for the day. So she put layers and layers of foundation on my face and then covered it with powder. I was asking her how many layers she was putting on and she was telling me that it's only single layer. While she was putting on the makeup she was trying to tell me how many open pores i have and i was gettibg lines and blah blah..... how contrary to what she initiay told me. Anyway once the makeup was done, she told me to look at myself in the mirror and told me how much better I looked.
As soon as I walked in front of the mirror, I felt I had a mask on and that mask was too many layers of makeup. I looked very cheap in that makeup. I decided to wipe it off and it took so many wipes to get rid of it. I told her that I did not like that look. Then she went on to tell me that i need to look after my skin and I'm getting wrinkles etc. She asked my age and I asked her to guess.. she said i looked 24 or 25. I told her I was 27!!
Then she went on to sell me this cream worth $80 instead of foundation. Then she said I needed a cleaner, toner, serum and moisturizer. The cost of everything added up to $496 NZD. She was trying to sell me all this. I didn't want to buy all these chemicals if I was that desperate for a chemistry lab , I would've taken them from my chemistry lab when I was doing my BSc in chemistry or masters in chemical engineering. So made up an excuse telling her that I didn't have much balance in my credit card and that was true as well. She then tried selling me one or two products out of the 5 but I still refused.
Next comes my friend i have known for the last 6 yrs from University. She always told me to wear makeup but I refused because of the products used in them. She thinks that I will only get a boyfriend if I start wearing makeup!!!
I eat healthy, I look after my skin, I exercise and sleep well except when depressed. And most importantly I look 5 years younger than my age.
So my question is,,, do you really need makeup to attract someone? ? I personally believe that I don't have to hide the person I am behind layers of mask called makeup. If I wear these layers then I won't be me and I will be promoting the wrong person. I know that I have body image issues but deep down I also know that it is me who needs to be satisfied with myself and no amount of makeup can do that!!
Your suggestions are very welcomed. Thanks :)
Yesterday I went to the mall to see if new season clothes have arrived and if I could buy some winter clothes. I also went to checkout if there was any special on lipstick (i usually wear very little of light color, similar to color lip balm leaves). I couldn't find much in the first retail store.
Then I thought I'd check the pharmacy. As I reached the pharmacy I asked one of the ladies about lipstick without knowing she was promoting a certain brand. There are different brands and different ladies are in charge of a brand and i unfortunately landed on her checkpoint. She was a Chinese lady. So when I asked her for a lipstick so showed me this bright red lipstick and then she said she'll put on my lips. Therefore I had to sit there and let her play with my face. While she was putting on lipstick, she was telling me how beautiful my lips and skin was. She then went on to tell me that if I had some makeup on I would look beautiful. So I asked her if I didn't look beautiful without it? She then laughed it off and told me that i look pretty.
She then asked me if I had extra time next time I come she'll do full face makeup on my face. I said, do it now not that I was desperate for makeup because I know that the chemicals in those products are very dangerous for skin and layers of foundation doesn't make you look beautiful. Anyway, I went with it and decided to be her guinea pig for the day. So she put layers and layers of foundation on my face and then covered it with powder. I was asking her how many layers she was putting on and she was telling me that it's only single layer. While she was putting on the makeup she was trying to tell me how many open pores i have and i was gettibg lines and blah blah..... how contrary to what she initiay told me. Anyway once the makeup was done, she told me to look at myself in the mirror and told me how much better I looked.
As soon as I walked in front of the mirror, I felt I had a mask on and that mask was too many layers of makeup. I looked very cheap in that makeup. I decided to wipe it off and it took so many wipes to get rid of it. I told her that I did not like that look. Then she went on to tell me that i need to look after my skin and I'm getting wrinkles etc. She asked my age and I asked her to guess.. she said i looked 24 or 25. I told her I was 27!!
Then she went on to sell me this cream worth $80 instead of foundation. Then she said I needed a cleaner, toner, serum and moisturizer. The cost of everything added up to $496 NZD. She was trying to sell me all this. I didn't want to buy all these chemicals if I was that desperate for a chemistry lab , I would've taken them from my chemistry lab when I was doing my BSc in chemistry or masters in chemical engineering. So made up an excuse telling her that I didn't have much balance in my credit card and that was true as well. She then tried selling me one or two products out of the 5 but I still refused.
Next comes my friend i have known for the last 6 yrs from University. She always told me to wear makeup but I refused because of the products used in them. She thinks that I will only get a boyfriend if I start wearing makeup!!!
I eat healthy, I look after my skin, I exercise and sleep well except when depressed. And most importantly I look 5 years younger than my age.
So my question is,,, do you really need makeup to attract someone? ? I personally believe that I don't have to hide the person I am behind layers of mask called makeup. If I wear these layers then I won't be me and I will be promoting the wrong person. I know that I have body image issues but deep down I also know that it is me who needs to be satisfied with myself and no amount of makeup can do that!!
Your suggestions are very welcomed. Thanks :)