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Hi all,
my original post was moved to a different forum as I mixed up several things in one post, my bad. So, this time I try to be more specific:
As many of you I have severe sleeping problems. Please see here my introduction for some background information about myself:
https://www.myptsd.com/threads/maybe-ptsd-not-sure.62396/
So, it has been a couple of years now that if I don’t drink any alcohol I just don’t sleep. I can stay up all night if I want and read or do whatever. Weird thing is that during the following day I’m not tired at all. In earlier times when I didn’t get at least 6 hours of sleep then the follwowing I day I would be extremely tired, yawning all day.
Well, it has been a few years that the very moment I was about to doze away I would jolt up with a feeling I was going to suffocate. Which feels really terrible. And I would wake up 2-3 times a night jolting up with just this suffocation feeling. This is particularly true for sleeping in total darkness and quietness. For a while I helped myself by sleeping on the sofa in the living room to the switched on TV, turning the volume down to a barely audible level.
But now since a few weeks it has gone to the next level. What happens now is that now as soon as I doze away I’m getting horrible dreams. Not sure if you can call it nightmares, but I immediately see catastrophic events. I see small children crashing with their bicyles into walls (which would leave them at least badly injured, if not dead), I see car crashes, trains derailing, airplanes crashing, houses beeing flooded and washed away by tsunamis and all sorts of bad things that, well … aren’t real and couldn’t be really described but are just plain horrible. I see all that from an above perspective. I never dream about anything that really happened to me, I never have any flashbacks.
So … 5-6 beers help with that, they let me just drop like a stone, but the next day is very bad of course, in particular as it makes my vertigo a lot, lot worse. And of course it is not healthy, it gains weight and … oh well, I don’t have to explain why it is not good.
Can anybody relate to dreams about disasters whithout being involved personally ? What could it possibly mean ?
Best regards
Frank
my original post was moved to a different forum as I mixed up several things in one post, my bad. So, this time I try to be more specific:
As many of you I have severe sleeping problems. Please see here my introduction for some background information about myself:
https://www.myptsd.com/threads/maybe-ptsd-not-sure.62396/
So, it has been a couple of years now that if I don’t drink any alcohol I just don’t sleep. I can stay up all night if I want and read or do whatever. Weird thing is that during the following day I’m not tired at all. In earlier times when I didn’t get at least 6 hours of sleep then the follwowing I day I would be extremely tired, yawning all day.
Well, it has been a few years that the very moment I was about to doze away I would jolt up with a feeling I was going to suffocate. Which feels really terrible. And I would wake up 2-3 times a night jolting up with just this suffocation feeling. This is particularly true for sleeping in total darkness and quietness. For a while I helped myself by sleeping on the sofa in the living room to the switched on TV, turning the volume down to a barely audible level.
But now since a few weeks it has gone to the next level. What happens now is that now as soon as I doze away I’m getting horrible dreams. Not sure if you can call it nightmares, but I immediately see catastrophic events. I see small children crashing with their bicyles into walls (which would leave them at least badly injured, if not dead), I see car crashes, trains derailing, airplanes crashing, houses beeing flooded and washed away by tsunamis and all sorts of bad things that, well … aren’t real and couldn’t be really described but are just plain horrible. I see all that from an above perspective. I never dream about anything that really happened to me, I never have any flashbacks.
So … 5-6 beers help with that, they let me just drop like a stone, but the next day is very bad of course, in particular as it makes my vertigo a lot, lot worse. And of course it is not healthy, it gains weight and … oh well, I don’t have to explain why it is not good.
Can anybody relate to dreams about disasters whithout being involved personally ? What could it possibly mean ?
Best regards
Frank