I have been doing emdr now for two years. I have multiple traumas that begin in childhood. The most damaging ones occurred when I was a young adult and in a relationship with a sociopath. Those memories came up first in emdr and we painfully worked through those and actually remapped my brain. All of my ptsd symptoms related to that are gone. Then we moved on to childhood, which doesn't really involve any sexual abuse as far as I know.
This week I started having dreams about being sexually abused by adults. In these dreams everything is in the present. I'm my right age and the places this takes place are in my present. After the second dream, I had a flash memory that day of something that happened in 6th grade on a school bus with an older student. I got out my yearbook and realized I don't remember anything from that year of my life. It's so weird.
Anyway - I am really bummed and scared of this new memory. I don't understand why it didn't come up when we were processing the other sexual memories. It makes me afraid that I'm not done discovering the sexual abuse and I don't want to find out if my dad (who I loved very much) actually abused me and I've blocked it out.
Anyone have any experience like this?
This week I started having dreams about being sexually abused by adults. In these dreams everything is in the present. I'm my right age and the places this takes place are in my present. After the second dream, I had a flash memory that day of something that happened in 6th grade on a school bus with an older student. I got out my yearbook and realized I don't remember anything from that year of my life. It's so weird.
Anyway - I am really bummed and scared of this new memory. I don't understand why it didn't come up when we were processing the other sexual memories. It makes me afraid that I'm not done discovering the sexual abuse and I don't want to find out if my dad (who I loved very much) actually abused me and I've blocked it out.
Anyone have any experience like this?