dougyhowzer
Confident
So just a few hours ago , I was practicing a piece for my guitar and when I decided to use the metronome I had trouble playing rhythm .
In the end I hit my tolerance level and stopped playing .
Not long after, I went to the convenience store and bought few junk food treats.
Whenever I eat junk food , it's an indicator that I was trigger from a ptsd related event . The problem is , the only thing I could remember in this case was an event in my childhood home where I was coming home singing.
Bob yelled at me and told me to stop singing . I don't know what happened after that except I felt oppressed and it is most likely that I would run to the conveince store and either buy junk food if I had the money or steal it.
I wonder if it's possible that by playing guitar , I am re triggering that event of what happened with me and Bob.
In the end I hit my tolerance level and stopped playing .
Not long after, I went to the convenience store and bought few junk food treats.
Whenever I eat junk food , it's an indicator that I was trigger from a ptsd related event . The problem is , the only thing I could remember in this case was an event in my childhood home where I was coming home singing.
Bob yelled at me and told me to stop singing . I don't know what happened after that except I felt oppressed and it is most likely that I would run to the conveince store and either buy junk food if I had the money or steal it.
I wonder if it's possible that by playing guitar , I am re triggering that event of what happened with me and Bob.