hi everyone,
At the moment I am feeling constantly frightened. This fear just sits with me all the time. It goes away when I'm with people I know. It's strong at night and when I wake up from nightmares, which happen a lot and are about all kinds of stupid horrible things (like my baby niece getting eaten by tigers and my friends hating me and ghosts and the end of the world). It's so stupid, I know there's nothing to be scared of but its just an instinctual fear; I get scared of strangers, scared of my own shadow, jumpy when my boyfriend snores....its actually even funny how silly it is lol. When I hear sounds - or any new kind of sense imprint, seeing anything - my mind starts intensely scanning for danger and I feel scared. I get scared to sleep and feel scared of my own mind and my dreams; I get scared I might just lose it...
I know I'm not in danger! But I feel frightened....
Right now I've felt scared for the past three days (since going out partying and not getting any sleep....won't be doing that again) when before I was fine...it's like it comes in circles "I'm fine" and then something stressful triggers me and I'm so scared for days.
I feel like I'm going crazy or scared I am and I get scared to tell anyone :(. I'm scared to tell my boyfriend and my parents... (I'm early 20s but feel like I need their support...). Does anyone else have this? Is it just normal PTSD? Any advice? I guess I'd love some advice on fast relief?
I guess I'll try and keep myself busy and keep up with my counselling, self-applied SE and massage - it HAS to get better.
Peace to everyone . Sorry that you all have to suffer this terrible thing as well.
At the moment I am feeling constantly frightened. This fear just sits with me all the time. It goes away when I'm with people I know. It's strong at night and when I wake up from nightmares, which happen a lot and are about all kinds of stupid horrible things (like my baby niece getting eaten by tigers and my friends hating me and ghosts and the end of the world). It's so stupid, I know there's nothing to be scared of but its just an instinctual fear; I get scared of strangers, scared of my own shadow, jumpy when my boyfriend snores....its actually even funny how silly it is lol. When I hear sounds - or any new kind of sense imprint, seeing anything - my mind starts intensely scanning for danger and I feel scared. I get scared to sleep and feel scared of my own mind and my dreams; I get scared I might just lose it...
I know I'm not in danger! But I feel frightened....
Right now I've felt scared for the past three days (since going out partying and not getting any sleep....won't be doing that again) when before I was fine...it's like it comes in circles "I'm fine" and then something stressful triggers me and I'm so scared for days.
I feel like I'm going crazy or scared I am and I get scared to tell anyone :(. I'm scared to tell my boyfriend and my parents... (I'm early 20s but feel like I need their support...). Does anyone else have this? Is it just normal PTSD? Any advice? I guess I'd love some advice on fast relief?
I guess I'll try and keep myself busy and keep up with my counselling, self-applied SE and massage - it HAS to get better.
Peace to everyone . Sorry that you all have to suffer this terrible thing as well.