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My SO is currently in isolation, last saw him end of May. No phone contact at all and he doesn't do social media. Though I am uncomfortably used to him isolating (5-8 weeks at a time usually) I am finding it tougher this time.
After nearly 2 years he finally felt save enough and confident enough to hold my hand one night and tell me out loud how he feels about me. It blew me away.... he finished by telling me that he has to protect the people closest to him, including me. And I haven't seen him since.
This month happens to be his 40th birthday and I was looking forward to spending some quiet time with him, making a small fuss and giving him his gifts. All year he has been going to the 40th birthday bashes of his friends. And now its his turn I feel totally excluded and useless. I know its not what he wants but I totally would have done the GF thing and planned something special with all his friends and family. He may well have something in mind but I'm clearly not part of the equation.
I respect his space and send one simple text maybe every 2-3 weeks just checking in, sending positivity and letting him know I'm here. I get nothing back.
I am well versed with good/ bad stress, overflowing cups etc... but I'm tired of going to work feeling like s**t and making up stories about how great my weekend was, just to keep me from bursting in to tears. How is this protecting me? It hurts.
After nearly 2 years he finally felt save enough and confident enough to hold my hand one night and tell me out loud how he feels about me. It blew me away.... he finished by telling me that he has to protect the people closest to him, including me. And I haven't seen him since.
This month happens to be his 40th birthday and I was looking forward to spending some quiet time with him, making a small fuss and giving him his gifts. All year he has been going to the 40th birthday bashes of his friends. And now its his turn I feel totally excluded and useless. I know its not what he wants but I totally would have done the GF thing and planned something special with all his friends and family. He may well have something in mind but I'm clearly not part of the equation.
I respect his space and send one simple text maybe every 2-3 weeks just checking in, sending positivity and letting him know I'm here. I get nothing back.
I am well versed with good/ bad stress, overflowing cups etc... but I'm tired of going to work feeling like s**t and making up stories about how great my weekend was, just to keep me from bursting in to tears. How is this protecting me? It hurts.