Ivan the Elder
Confident
I have been fighting PTSD at a very low level all my life until about four months ago. Then I was forced into a psychiatric ward by my now ex wife telling a lie to my doctor by telling him I was suicidal. He was required to send me to the ward. That was a huge mistake. A number of very bad incidents including violence in that ward caused my PTSD to flare up to the max. The very last thing I needed in my life was up close violence and also being directly subjected to three different possible ways to kill me because of my medical conditions. One of my strongest cues now is to hear anybody sound the least bit like they are arguing, never mind banging their head on the wall and screaming all night long.
It has been terrible trying to deal with the PTSD since then. There have been many evenings when I haven't been able to sleep until maybe three am and sometimes almost not at all. Nightmares from my abused childhood have flared up, dreams I haven't had since I was a child.
Three weeks ago I started a 9 week series of group therapy CBT for PTSD. Also, a couple of weeks ago my doctor prescribed me a very light evening dose of Oxazepam. That is a benzo drug with a very short half life so it is mostly worn off by the morning.
The group therapy is being done by a couple of female therapists one of which is also my own therapist. It is being done in an excellent manner and has already helped me in certain ways. With the only 15 mg dose of Oxazepam I am sleeping like a log and go to sleep in minutes with no observable side effects in the morning.
I am feeling ten times better and am now really starting to feel like getting things done that I have not been interested in doing at all since I got out of the hell hole ward they put me in. I also no longer care what my ex wife is up to, it's over and done with, mostly. It is no longer running a vicious tightening spiral in my head every evening. I think that is in large part due to the Oxazepam even at such a small dose. The dose on that can go up to over 100 mg per day. Not needed at all, at least not for me. I am also not the addiction type, so I'm not concerned about that.
Things are finally going better with more improvement on the horizon. Yay!!
It has been terrible trying to deal with the PTSD since then. There have been many evenings when I haven't been able to sleep until maybe three am and sometimes almost not at all. Nightmares from my abused childhood have flared up, dreams I haven't had since I was a child.
Three weeks ago I started a 9 week series of group therapy CBT for PTSD. Also, a couple of weeks ago my doctor prescribed me a very light evening dose of Oxazepam. That is a benzo drug with a very short half life so it is mostly worn off by the morning.
The group therapy is being done by a couple of female therapists one of which is also my own therapist. It is being done in an excellent manner and has already helped me in certain ways. With the only 15 mg dose of Oxazepam I am sleeping like a log and go to sleep in minutes with no observable side effects in the morning.
I am feeling ten times better and am now really starting to feel like getting things done that I have not been interested in doing at all since I got out of the hell hole ward they put me in. I also no longer care what my ex wife is up to, it's over and done with, mostly. It is no longer running a vicious tightening spiral in my head every evening. I think that is in large part due to the Oxazepam even at such a small dose. The dose on that can go up to over 100 mg per day. Not needed at all, at least not for me. I am also not the addiction type, so I'm not concerned about that.
Things are finally going better with more improvement on the horizon. Yay!!