Rose White
MyPTSD Pro
My life was all messed up, I couldn't be happy no matter what and trauma kept happening. I went to therapy to be a better parent and better teacher, but my therapist helped me to be honest with myself and allow myself to feel emotions. Once I could feel the feelings I could access the memories and since I decided to be honest with myself, I knew they weren't right. I think my husband wants to leave me now. He feels like he no longer "has me", says I'm robotic and that everyone has their problems. To top it all off we live with my parents, including the dad who molested me and beat me. I didn't realize it was wrong. I feel very sad but dissociative at the same time. Today I felt like I wanted to murder my dad while I was driving, but I don't feel that way now. I can barely look my therapist in the eyes even though I know she is a safe person. I want to try to be more present with her next time.