I am holding down a full-time job.:claps: The conditions; salary, benefits, holidays, flexible working hours are fabulous. Firstly, 12 months ago they did a re-structure and for the first time the place is a somewhat unhappy & negative one. The main problems which are probably common everywhere; alot of office bitching :fight:, apathetic & disconnected management, and because of the re-structure our job roles have become quite one-dimensional. I'm fortunate in that my role is relationship based & there are no set targets, I'm pretty much left to my own devices. However, I'm working at about 10% of my capacity, and this makes me feel like a failure.:doh: I used to be really good at this job. I was passionate and derived alot of pleasure from simply doing my job. For 12 months I haven't had that & I don't know how to get it back.:dont-know Because of the situation in the office, I avoid going into the office at all, as it really is intolerable on top of my own issues. I try to set small tasks to do but completely lack motivation. As a result of doing so little for so long, I think I've also lost my confidence. My work knows about my past depressive episode, but I have not told them about the ptsd. Recently my boss queried my behaviour (absent or angry) and performance (lack of), but I denied any 'personal problems'. I don't want to be the 'crazy' one:cuckoo: Does anyone else work full-time? How do you become motivated & confident again? It's important to me to keep working full-time as I think this helps my recovery.