Hi everyone, Ive had an account here for a while but have never posted.
Just want to share a few things to more share and get it off my chest.
My boyfriend has Complex PTSD from an event(s) that happened when he was 3
It was a family member (not immediate) that is not in the picture anymore so thats one small mercy..
(he has not told his immediate family who this person is but has told them that something happened when he was small)
He suffers from small fits when it all gets too much and they are just so horrible to watch someone you love experience something like that.
- We went to a Comedy night last night and the content turned to Pedophilia he couldn't handle it (I couldn't really either) so we left early with him in tears ranting how he would love to hurt this person who did this to him etc
He then proceeded to get drunk and gamble - even though he doesn't really have much money but his reasoning was that it makes him feel better. He then won $200 and even though I insisted on him just taking the money out of the machine he just gambled that away too.
This is not the man I love and it upsets me seeing him like this, I know him and I are worth more than events like this but it can really get you down and have an effect on you.
We he is in this headspace he asks why im with such a F*(k up and I reassure him that he is not (because he isnt) and that I am here to support him as long as he shows he is actively trying to get help.
We are going to visit my family for a week and they have 2 small kids under 4, he mentioned the other day that even though he LOVES being around them they can sometimes trigger thoughts/memories about his past which upsets me.
Phew!! ok thats a rant I didnt think I would have on here but I needed to get it out!
Thanks to anyone who took the time to read it!
Just want to share a few things to more share and get it off my chest.
My boyfriend has Complex PTSD from an event(s) that happened when he was 3
It was a family member (not immediate) that is not in the picture anymore so thats one small mercy..
(he has not told his immediate family who this person is but has told them that something happened when he was small)
He suffers from small fits when it all gets too much and they are just so horrible to watch someone you love experience something like that.
- We went to a Comedy night last night and the content turned to Pedophilia he couldn't handle it (I couldn't really either) so we left early with him in tears ranting how he would love to hurt this person who did this to him etc
He then proceeded to get drunk and gamble - even though he doesn't really have much money but his reasoning was that it makes him feel better. He then won $200 and even though I insisted on him just taking the money out of the machine he just gambled that away too.
This is not the man I love and it upsets me seeing him like this, I know him and I are worth more than events like this but it can really get you down and have an effect on you.
We he is in this headspace he asks why im with such a F*(k up and I reassure him that he is not (because he isnt) and that I am here to support him as long as he shows he is actively trying to get help.
We are going to visit my family for a week and they have 2 small kids under 4, he mentioned the other day that even though he LOVES being around them they can sometimes trigger thoughts/memories about his past which upsets me.
Phew!! ok thats a rant I didnt think I would have on here but I needed to get it out!
Thanks to anyone who took the time to read it!