ok well here it goes. first i screwed up by putin my full name in the user area. I typically like to go by UBU thats ooboo not u be u. Im a cop and got that as a nick name when i started. Always trying to do everything right, dont want to get into trouble. All that BS. I am a spouse of a PTSD sufferer. I have my own issues to as we all do. I dont want to make this too long. But here we go. I grew up in the LDS or Mormon church. I gave it my all for 23 years. I served in a bishopbric much like a minister but different and in the high councel. My then wife and kids supported my and i believe were proud of what i was doing in our community. During my time in the bishopbric i felt depressed. No joy in life. Dr prescribed Zoloft, been on it for 10 years now. Upped the doesage over the years still seems to be workin.