Well I had it pretty bad yesterday. I do know what triggered it but really couldnt prevent it from coming. A friend of mine had to talk me through it and thats what mostly helps out alot. She went through the same trauma that I went through in fact worse. I have had to talk her out of some serious stuff as well. Monday I will start to seek out treatment being that I changed states. I thought it would help me out with a change of area and envirionment. I have been afraid of taking medication being that I went through a horrible custody battle and any medication I would be taking would be used against me. I just developed a deep lostness (thats the only way to describe it). I felt so adrift and unable to come back. I started going back to my old behaviors and shutting myself in. But as exhausted as I am I do feel better. Untill something else gets to me. baby steps I suppose.