:angry-fla :angry-fla , I'm crazy.Forrest Gump ,that is my skill level typing! For years I've kept a journal,my therapy! I write for a while the crazed anger dissapates. Woke up yesterday gaspin' for air (emphysema). For most of the time these last 2 yrs.I get up suppress my rage ,put on a happy face and suffer thru. I ran my daughter & grandkids off with my bitching. In the mean time every ****in' thing was an aggravation! From 9am til 10:30 I wrote! Of course that which got me to today 38 yrs. ago:angry-fla .The more I'm dealing with my va comp/pension app.Going back 2 mos I started research,then I submitted it to va reg. Salt lake,from the office in Moab,Utah,home.On it,PTSD was almost an after thought.Treated -none My explanation reads:"PYSD.Back in 69 we were men who dealt with it.Today I'M "O.K.".look back 40 years a classic case set in motion,knowing I was going to die in Vietnam anyway,social disconnect,failed relationships,alcohol abuse,which I dealt with everyday."I was on yahoo answer with a question about A.O.,PTSD and a possible link to my emphysema. That's when I heard from you.I signed in,sodamn spazzed I have been reluctant! I wrote wow I have an advocate,cool! I finally come back to try again, I see on top of my page diagnosed...! I was exstatic for a moment,til I read my submitted va 21-526. depression started Thur. afternoon,exploding into:angry-fla yesterday.I'm embarrassed and confused by this sight ,so I figured do it Sat when if it takes all day ,OK. 109 pgs skype orange readin' thru that for hours last nite was informative including the PTSD info. Frustration went backto beyond! How about Opium soaked pot laced with A.O. sold & delivered by momma-son,courtesy of DOD. Hell,it only has one line about drug abuse in the 109 pages! Like it wasn't an issue or problem. Of 8 who served in nam from moab,4000, 1 died there(lucky him) 4 are dead physical ailments.