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Poll Has PTSD Caused You To Attempt Suicide?

Has PTSD Caused You To Attempt Suicide?

  • No

    Votes: 137 29.0%
  • Yes, Once Only

    Votes: 116 24.5%
  • Yes, Many Times, Various Ways

    Votes: 220 46.5%

  • Total voters
    473
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There was only one time that I genuinely wanted to die.

The rest of the time I believe was less "I want to die" than it was not knowing what else to do. I lost count of the number of overdoses. Once with a razor. Once a real nifty self-strangulation I figured out with a phone charger when I was on the wards (place was pretty well suicide-proofed); also tied a shoelace very tight round my neck then tried to sleep through it. I've stood over the railings of a motorway bridge a handful of times; twice been talked down by police, once been dragged down (but I only started to jump when I knew I would be caught I think). When I was self-medicating with alcohol I would throw myself into traffic.

I still get thoughts and I kind of have a plan (one I don't have any intention of going through with in the near future). It's sort of like a failsafe. If my thoughts start going that way particularly strongly I say to myself that I can only listen to the thoughts if I do it like I planned. It involves a very long drive to a very long drop with a very uncomfortable landing, and is quite likely to succeed. If I don't feel like I could do it, then there must be more of a benefit to staying alive despite whatever difficulty I'm experiencing at the time. Plus it being far away gives me a chance to reconsider if it ever happens.
 
Yes, I came really close once, it was not long after my wife passed and I was feeling really low, it was a phone call that stopped me.

The call came from a cyber mate, who lives in Canada, had an idea of what I was planning, and his call stopped me.
 
Many thoughts of suicide, and plans in place for various easily accessible methods. But so far, no serious attempts. Just feel like I would like to. Hopefully it stays that way.
 
Yes, once when I was 14, again when I was 15, and I seriously considered it and took steps toward a 3rd attempt at it when I was 36. these were all attempts to end my life consiously.

I also put myself through a lot of extreme risk between the ages 14-26, and I haven't finished identifying them all at the age of 40.
 
One of friends grand parent had PTSD... I know him telling a time when he was acting weird of all sorts. Ended up killing himself.. Really nice man.. still remember him..
 
I have never attempted suicide. I will say that sometimes life feels very long when dealing with PTSD. during my better times, I can't imagine why I've felt that way. PTSD makes you tired of fighting.
 
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