So, as the title says... And this is my first time coming out about this.
I'm in a relationship with a person that was raped recently and I also have PTSD. So, sorta having to push both the role of supporter while being a sufferer. As can probably be guessed, not doing well... Not much of the element of mutual support and stuff, and I don't feel as though there is much understanding for me in the relationship.
It's not a really stable relationship. But, the problem is, I cannot get out, because of the fear of her doing something seriously bad to herself. Last time I started going towards anything like that, I had to look at plenty of cutting, and her even sending me pictures of where she cut and so on. Mainly feels like a net I'm being wrapped more and more into... And the longer it goes on, the harder it will be to break free.
Now, it wouldn't be such a huge problem if I wanted to stay in the relationship fully, but the problem is, I sorta don't want to be in a relationship with her. I mean, I love you, but not much, I just care a lot about what will happen. And for the reasons above, I am not even trying to get out anymore, but it's going too long.
I do not want to be in the relationship, I want to be free, and this just makes me feel bad...
Anyone who had/has similar situations or can help in any way?
I'm in a relationship with a person that was raped recently and I also have PTSD. So, sorta having to push both the role of supporter while being a sufferer. As can probably be guessed, not doing well... Not much of the element of mutual support and stuff, and I don't feel as though there is much understanding for me in the relationship.
It's not a really stable relationship. But, the problem is, I cannot get out, because of the fear of her doing something seriously bad to herself. Last time I started going towards anything like that, I had to look at plenty of cutting, and her even sending me pictures of where she cut and so on. Mainly feels like a net I'm being wrapped more and more into... And the longer it goes on, the harder it will be to break free.
Now, it wouldn't be such a huge problem if I wanted to stay in the relationship fully, but the problem is, I sorta don't want to be in a relationship with her. I mean, I love you, but not much, I just care a lot about what will happen. And for the reasons above, I am not even trying to get out anymore, but it's going too long.
I do not want to be in the relationship, I want to be free, and this just makes me feel bad...
Anyone who had/has similar situations or can help in any way?