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I'm so f*cking angry right now I should just f*cking kill myself. I can't shake these memories. I know I had anal sex as a child and I remember I couldn't wipe my own ass for the longest time. In pre school the teachers had to do it for me. I remember I just felt so dirty all the time and I'm just so f*cking humiliated and I'm so angry at my parents. How can you not think anything is f*cking wrong when a child can't wipe their own ass but you'd get angry at me for not developing at the same rate as the other kids. I just want to kill myself I'll never be anything in this life. I'll never be happy. I'm visiting family out of my country right now and I just burst out crying in the car and my cousin made me feel a bit better, but still it's not like I can just physically say out loud that I'm having memories of anal sex. I hate this I just don't know what to do. I don't want this and I'm so embarrassed about this