I was in a car accident on December 24, 2016. Basically, it was two consecutive accidents, and I thought I was going to die. I walked away from the accident with soft tissue damage that took about 4 months to heal, but my back is definitely weaker than I remember. It's been the toughest time of my life. I'm fighting my insurance company for a stupid amount of money. I've got really good family and other support, but at this point, I feel like I've got to deal with it mentally. It all keeps coming back: the nightmares and frustration. It's been almost 10 months, and I don't understand why I still feel this way. Most days, I struggle to find motivation in life. I just want it to be over and go back to who I was. I'm sick of being defined by this accident. I just need some good advice from others. How long is this going to take? Do I need to be more patient and stop beating myself up for feeling weak? How do I do that? I hate showing weakness, but that's all this accident has done for me. I don't understand. I've got such a good life, so why don't I feel like it? Just please help.