Shazarabbit
New Here
Hey everyone,
I came across this site when i decided to research on the internet about some of the things i was feeling. Back in May my house caught on fire and i recieved third degree burns to my right arm from my shoulder to my fingers. Although i am extremely lucky that it was not as bad as it could have been, it doesn't mean that everything is all peachy.
There's not a night i don't close my eyes and feel the heat and the fear of that event. Everytime i lay in my bed and close my eyes its almost as if im going back to the moment before it all started. I keep reliving it and over analysing the situation. Which is what brought me here. I'm no doctor or psychiatrist so i cannot say what i have if i have anything at all. But i am hoping that perhaps by meeting people who are a bit like me i can help myself and others.
I am 19 years old and i live in Australia. I know i have some problems with my ability to cope with what happened. I was only 18 years old, it was my fault the kitchen caught on fire and its my fault i recieved third degree burns, i paniced and put oil that was on fire into running water. We have gas in our house and the emergency department told me to hang up and wait for someone to call me back.
If it wasn't for these two lovely strangers across the road, i wouldn't be alive today and my neighbours would be dead as well. It's extreme guilt i feel over the event, the stress i put everyone under its a bit hard to come to terms with. I try to put on a brave face for everyone. I don't think there is a single person who understands what its like in my mind. what fears i have when i set foot into the kitchen where it happened. It took over 4 months for the Housing Department (Governmental Housing) to come out and fix the kitchen, it used to be a constant reminder of the mistakes i made, Now that it has been fixed i am trying to help myself move on from this event. My arm has healed alot, i will know more at my next hospital appointment.
I look foreward to meeting each and everyone of you. I'd like to thank you all for listening (reading) about me.
Thank you for your time.
:hello:Shaz:hello:
I came across this site when i decided to research on the internet about some of the things i was feeling. Back in May my house caught on fire and i recieved third degree burns to my right arm from my shoulder to my fingers. Although i am extremely lucky that it was not as bad as it could have been, it doesn't mean that everything is all peachy.
There's not a night i don't close my eyes and feel the heat and the fear of that event. Everytime i lay in my bed and close my eyes its almost as if im going back to the moment before it all started. I keep reliving it and over analysing the situation. Which is what brought me here. I'm no doctor or psychiatrist so i cannot say what i have if i have anything at all. But i am hoping that perhaps by meeting people who are a bit like me i can help myself and others.
I am 19 years old and i live in Australia. I know i have some problems with my ability to cope with what happened. I was only 18 years old, it was my fault the kitchen caught on fire and its my fault i recieved third degree burns, i paniced and put oil that was on fire into running water. We have gas in our house and the emergency department told me to hang up and wait for someone to call me back.
If it wasn't for these two lovely strangers across the road, i wouldn't be alive today and my neighbours would be dead as well. It's extreme guilt i feel over the event, the stress i put everyone under its a bit hard to come to terms with. I try to put on a brave face for everyone. I don't think there is a single person who understands what its like in my mind. what fears i have when i set foot into the kitchen where it happened. It took over 4 months for the Housing Department (Governmental Housing) to come out and fix the kitchen, it used to be a constant reminder of the mistakes i made, Now that it has been fixed i am trying to help myself move on from this event. My arm has healed alot, i will know more at my next hospital appointment.
I look foreward to meeting each and everyone of you. I'd like to thank you all for listening (reading) about me.
Thank you for your time.
:hello:Shaz:hello: