Im currently serving in the unitedstates army as a scout, i signed up after highschool even with this war going on, and people telling me not to i still signed up. Im currently 20 married, and have seen stuff, that i probably shouldnt of seen. i have been feeling emotions of being lonely and reliving december 23 when one of the Mp elements with us hit a Ied. I have talked to my family about it, and when i tried to talk to my wife when i was home on leave about it, she basicly told me she didnt want to hear it, and that hurt. Half the time i feel like im going to be stuck in iraq forever and never see my family again. Another time i told my wife something i shouldnt have, i told her what if i die and you didnt talk to me the day before what would you do knowing that. I dont know what to do anymore im never back on the fob im currently off the fob more than i am at it, we do up to 96 hr missions at a time. I dont want to hurt my wife, i know she didnt sign up for the military and i must be putting her through hell, and all i do is make it worse.