NikkiDevon
New Here
Hi there, I've only just discovered this site. I was diagnosed two years ago and started EMDR through the nhs earlier this year.
It's complicated as I have suffered from ME for ten years and have experienced a rapid decline in my physical health during my treatment. I've had to take two weeks between each session to even start to regain physical strength to take on another session. I have had moments where I've felt a sense of freedom and things shifting during my EMDR and felt some promise but then always a worsening of physical health.
I had to cancel my last session (no.14, I'm due one or two more before I've had my allowed amount; I've tackled 8 targets in that time from 36 years of my life) and have tried to rebook but no one has got back to me. It's been nearly four weeks. I feel left in the lurch and it's adding to my PTSD symptoms. I don't feel well at all with my PTSD and physical health.
I've recently received notice to move out of my home (I'm a single mum with teenage son and our fourth move in six years, not out of choice) due to the owners needing it back and this has felt like a final straw. In the last two years alone we've returned from overseas, I've got divorced, nursed my son through severe anxiety, lost my beloved career a second time due to ME worsening and handled my abusive ex. Each day I feel I'm on the verge of a complete physical and mental breakdown, then lift briefly, then hit rock bottom again. I can't work out if my mental health is making my physical health worse or vice versa and don't know what to do. I'm seeing a gp later this week but I know they can't help with ME and can only change my medication.
Am I experiencing prolonged processing? Will it get better? I can't access my safe place and feel permanently on alert and fearful.
I know that's a lot of info for an intro! Thanks for reading.
It's complicated as I have suffered from ME for ten years and have experienced a rapid decline in my physical health during my treatment. I've had to take two weeks between each session to even start to regain physical strength to take on another session. I have had moments where I've felt a sense of freedom and things shifting during my EMDR and felt some promise but then always a worsening of physical health.
I had to cancel my last session (no.14, I'm due one or two more before I've had my allowed amount; I've tackled 8 targets in that time from 36 years of my life) and have tried to rebook but no one has got back to me. It's been nearly four weeks. I feel left in the lurch and it's adding to my PTSD symptoms. I don't feel well at all with my PTSD and physical health.
I've recently received notice to move out of my home (I'm a single mum with teenage son and our fourth move in six years, not out of choice) due to the owners needing it back and this has felt like a final straw. In the last two years alone we've returned from overseas, I've got divorced, nursed my son through severe anxiety, lost my beloved career a second time due to ME worsening and handled my abusive ex. Each day I feel I'm on the verge of a complete physical and mental breakdown, then lift briefly, then hit rock bottom again. I can't work out if my mental health is making my physical health worse or vice versa and don't know what to do. I'm seeing a gp later this week but I know they can't help with ME and can only change my medication.
Am I experiencing prolonged processing? Will it get better? I can't access my safe place and feel permanently on alert and fearful.
I know that's a lot of info for an intro! Thanks for reading.
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