goingonhope
MyPTSD Pro
I suppose I just need to talk to people who understand how lonely my world is.
......just trying to fit into a world that I dont feel part of and trying to act like a normal person as I feel like I'm crazy most of the time.
Hi wadoo, and Welcome! I could really identify with your intro. You expressed yourself well, reminding me that others do in fact feel terribly lonely in this world. That's how I have almost always felt too, save a few too short periods of time.
Like you I often have expended so much of my energies, exhausting myself trying just to appear normal. I started very young doing this and failed, time and again. When I actually succeeded, as an adult, to some degree I then felt all the more lonely, bc I felt so disconnected, unreal, desperately alone and having lost/abandoned myself. Secretly I thought, God, if someone, other than myself, only knew.
So wadoo, as you now already know, there are so many of us with so much in common here. Welcome aboard, and hope you find all that you need, here and elsewhere, to heal. As well as to often accept and find some enjoyment, and joy in the midst of all of your healing journey.
ps. I use to always feel as if I was crazy and others were not, but for a longtime now, I generally prefer to be me just as I am, and would choose my feelings of crazinest over being others, (people I know and have met along the way in real life time), anytime.
Hope