Hi, I had a panic attack this morning so i thought I'd look for some support. I've had this all my life and just can't seem to stop it. It started at 14 after being raped 2 times. That was 46 years ago. Of course things got worse and then better than worse. Now I'm in worse but then again i dont think I've ever gotten better. I started drinking at 14 and that helped the anxiety but only when i was drunk. I took xanax for a few years and got addicted to it. So life got really bad because i was doing stupid things. I've been sober now for 23 years. I'm not a good candidate for meds.
So right now and for over 15 years i do not drive because i have panic attacks when I'm sitting at a light or in traffic. I am afraid of the doctor my bp goes through the roof when I'm there and they freak me out when they look at me. Lol i do have a good dr now that understands he still looks at me funny. I also think im allergic to most foods so i dont eat right at all.
Im a mess. Cant afford therapy but its never done me much good. I feel domed. I have faced some of my fears and just did it anyway but i cant seem to get up the nerve to just get stuck in traffic and deal with it. I need to eat right im making my self sick. I'm pretty much scared of everything. I had a therapist tell me i had enough things happen to me to give 12 people anxiety.
So right now and for over 15 years i do not drive because i have panic attacks when I'm sitting at a light or in traffic. I am afraid of the doctor my bp goes through the roof when I'm there and they freak me out when they look at me. Lol i do have a good dr now that understands he still looks at me funny. I also think im allergic to most foods so i dont eat right at all.
Im a mess. Cant afford therapy but its never done me much good. I feel domed. I have faced some of my fears and just did it anyway but i cant seem to get up the nerve to just get stuck in traffic and deal with it. I need to eat right im making my self sick. I'm pretty much scared of everything. I had a therapist tell me i had enough things happen to me to give 12 people anxiety.