Hey, I'm cyanfox, and I'm a college student who needs some extra support right now. I've recently come to terms with my issues and realize that it's massively impacting my life now.
I can't focus in class, have worsening depression, flasbacks, anger issues, ocd, and paranoid issues. I'm also dealing with Aspergers syndrome and I have another account on a different forum for that, but it's not enough.
Another thing I must add, is that I don't like being touched, hugged, kissed, or touched anywhere on the front of my body. It sounds like sexual abuse, but I don't remember any serious accounts of abuse aside from a failed attempt at grooming by a now deceased family member.
I currently despise being a woman, with low body strength, easily grope-able parts, and being less likely to be taken seriously. I've been considering going as far as cross-dressing into men's clothes so I'll feel less vulnerable and look more androgynous so I won't be an obvious target by attackers on the street.
I'm on meds, but only for mild depression, ocd, and anxiety, and I feel like they're not helping.
I even have a small fear that I might be developing schizophrenia due to a family history of it and this vague concept of my thoughts not being private. It's so much to worry about.
I can't focus in class, have worsening depression, flasbacks, anger issues, ocd, and paranoid issues. I'm also dealing with Aspergers syndrome and I have another account on a different forum for that, but it's not enough.
Another thing I must add, is that I don't like being touched, hugged, kissed, or touched anywhere on the front of my body. It sounds like sexual abuse, but I don't remember any serious accounts of abuse aside from a failed attempt at grooming by a now deceased family member.
I currently despise being a woman, with low body strength, easily grope-able parts, and being less likely to be taken seriously. I've been considering going as far as cross-dressing into men's clothes so I'll feel less vulnerable and look more androgynous so I won't be an obvious target by attackers on the street.
I'm on meds, but only for mild depression, ocd, and anxiety, and I feel like they're not helping.
I even have a small fear that I might be developing schizophrenia due to a family history of it and this vague concept of my thoughts not being private. It's so much to worry about.