I put this in "dysregulation" because I have trouble living with others. I hope it´s the correct forum. I would like to ask for some advice and support. You can provide constructive criticism, but please be gentle as I´m still mourning the loss of someone I loved, and dealing with triggered PTSD due to a confrontation with my abuser. The situation is like this. I am moving out because over the three years that I have lived here, I have sometimes had anxiety attacks. When in severe anxiety I usually feel like I´m in danger - and react by getting angry, swearing and throwing things. I know that this is not okay. Depending on the day I can apply some techniques to handle the situation. When I can, I go outside, I practice mindfulness, try calming myself, and practice sports. But I´m not an ubermensch. Sometimes I still "lose it" inside the house. My housing situation is not good. My house mates live in general disregard for other people - they have shown this by just leaving their garbage for other people to clean up. Recently they also stole two of my bicycles. They falsely accuse me of things I did not do. Each house mate has their own studio in this house, which has it´s own landlords. There are five landlords that are "in charge", including mine. My landlord understands my situation very well, she handles people who have PTSD in daily life. She understands that I am not easy to live with, and on the other hand she also understands that my house mates generally are not very easy to live with either. But she is being bullied by the other four landlords to "fix the situation". Which means that every time a complaint is filed against me - whether it is true or not - they will be on my back and telling me that I need to have a "talk" with them, which usually results in me getting a humiliating sermon and no real change. My PTSD is caused by people being overly controlling of my life when I was a kid, and constantly monitoring what I was doing. Back then severe violence and verbal abuse was used to keep me under control. Now there is no violence but I feel the same way. Being under constant supervision and being forced to comply with their humiliating sermons causes me to have intrusive thoughts/emotions which in turn make my anxiety worse, in turn making me act out worse during anxiety, resulting in them coming down on me even harder. I truly am trying to get a new place. But in the meantime I have to try and retain my sanity so as not to end up in the hospital. I´ve lost 7kg (15.4 lbs) and already was bordering on underweight. I need to draw some lines and protect my wellbeing. I´ve already told them that I needed space, and that the talks were not helping. When they did not respect this, I have put an email filter in place so I don´t receive their email anymore. But I just don´t know what to do if they keep badgering me. I already am trying very hard to find a new place to live. I´ve offered to talk about the situation with my house mates and explain it to them. That is all I can do, but it´s never enough for them. Thank you for reading and for any support.