The following is just my relating an experience I had. Everything written in this post is just my opinion, so if you want to just reading here and ignore it, that is totally ok. No Harm. That is ok with me, really. no sweat.
I have a theatre degree, and have done [pro theatre] acting. For all of the ways acting has screwed up my ablility to trust, I probably would rather have gotten a degree in singing. But, since it's been over 13 yrs. since I earned my degree, + I forgot the emotional and sometimes emotionally painful impact that art or [a harrowing film like "saving private ryan"] can have on someone.
Recently, I had to go in to work for 2 hrs one day. I prepped for the day badly by sleeping too little + by eating breakfast too fast before driving to work.
While getting ready for work, I saw a film that really blindsided me + hurt me. [well, that was my fault. The fictional film involved police brutally murdering criminal suspects, I could have turned it off when the film started to make me uneasy]. It was an anime, [meaning Japanese animation], film. I won't mention it's name, but avoid anime films where people wear black nazi-looking helmets and use WWII nazi guns.
Anyhow, the film involed a government man who falls in love with a 17-year-old girl. The girl belongs to a crime group. In the end, the man's government agency tells him that she is a threat to the agency, and that he must kill her or [he will be killed himself if he does not kill her]. In the end, she is killed by the agency.
There are probably many things about the end of the film that really upset me and probably slapped around my various issues and traumas. The film covered things in stories I despise: The murder of children, abusive cops or military, betrayal of your friend, killing of innocent people and the like. Yeah, my anger at my being attacked and knocked out by an ex-military man probably made a connection in my mind to the girl who was killed by the military-type man in the film. Also, I probably wanted [the strong fictional man] to save the girl who was sentenced to death, and was clinging to his chest, with her crying and seemingly pleading and for him to save her. But he doesn't save her, he caves in and lets his agency kill her.
.......Yeah, this film probably probably mirrors my past in a way that is too close for my comfort: A military man betrays some girl who loves him and visciously attacks her. When I was about 8, I had my back to an ex-military man. He got pissed off at me or at anything, most likely because he was a guy who was [looked down on, since he liked living off of his wife, and staying home and being a lazy bum]. The piece of ____ probably attacked me and knocked me out because he wanted to fight someone and win. Yeah, a 25 year old military trained guy sneaks up behind a boy and beats that 8 year old boy unconscious. somehow, that isn't a fair fight. Yes, the film struck a nerve with me. In the film, the girl is sentenced to death and is killed in a quick and unexpected way that makes you step back and cover the horrifed expression on your face. Off topic, I know, this sh*t of a man that I know attacks me in a terrifying way. And in a painful way. He was the guy I admired the most at that time. He has probably wrecked my ability to trust, and my abilityto think that people over 16 can be trusted by me. or that adults can be safe.
Not all films and fiction are just fake stories, I believe. The book, "Gone with the wind" is a fictional book about the hardships of the U.S. South in the civil war. But the stories of the southern people suffering in that makes the book almost real to some people. If you insult "gone with the wind" around some southerners, They will angrily look at you like you have spitted on The Bible or their mother. My conclusion about my seeing this film? I dont know.
I guess if you have issues with violence, I strongly suggest that you be careful about what: action, war or violent films and shows you see. Also, even though You and I are of adult age, there are still films and fictions that can make you cry or make you feel completely miserable. I think I'll avoid anime films for awhile. That's not supposed to be a clever ending, I'm REALLY uncomfortable with anime right now. Oh well.
Hope you're all having a Good Day,
Rob
I have a theatre degree, and have done [pro theatre] acting. For all of the ways acting has screwed up my ablility to trust, I probably would rather have gotten a degree in singing. But, since it's been over 13 yrs. since I earned my degree, + I forgot the emotional and sometimes emotionally painful impact that art or [a harrowing film like "saving private ryan"] can have on someone.
Recently, I had to go in to work for 2 hrs one day. I prepped for the day badly by sleeping too little + by eating breakfast too fast before driving to work.
While getting ready for work, I saw a film that really blindsided me + hurt me. [well, that was my fault. The fictional film involved police brutally murdering criminal suspects, I could have turned it off when the film started to make me uneasy]. It was an anime, [meaning Japanese animation], film. I won't mention it's name, but avoid anime films where people wear black nazi-looking helmets and use WWII nazi guns.
Anyhow, the film involed a government man who falls in love with a 17-year-old girl. The girl belongs to a crime group. In the end, the man's government agency tells him that she is a threat to the agency, and that he must kill her or [he will be killed himself if he does not kill her]. In the end, she is killed by the agency.
There are probably many things about the end of the film that really upset me and probably slapped around my various issues and traumas. The film covered things in stories I despise: The murder of children, abusive cops or military, betrayal of your friend, killing of innocent people and the like. Yeah, my anger at my being attacked and knocked out by an ex-military man probably made a connection in my mind to the girl who was killed by the military-type man in the film. Also, I probably wanted [the strong fictional man] to save the girl who was sentenced to death, and was clinging to his chest, with her crying and seemingly pleading and for him to save her. But he doesn't save her, he caves in and lets his agency kill her.
.......Yeah, this film probably probably mirrors my past in a way that is too close for my comfort: A military man betrays some girl who loves him and visciously attacks her. When I was about 8, I had my back to an ex-military man. He got pissed off at me or at anything, most likely because he was a guy who was [looked down on, since he liked living off of his wife, and staying home and being a lazy bum]. The piece of ____ probably attacked me and knocked me out because he wanted to fight someone and win. Yeah, a 25 year old military trained guy sneaks up behind a boy and beats that 8 year old boy unconscious. somehow, that isn't a fair fight. Yes, the film struck a nerve with me. In the film, the girl is sentenced to death and is killed in a quick and unexpected way that makes you step back and cover the horrifed expression on your face. Off topic, I know, this sh*t of a man that I know attacks me in a terrifying way. And in a painful way. He was the guy I admired the most at that time. He has probably wrecked my ability to trust, and my abilityto think that people over 16 can be trusted by me. or that adults can be safe.
Not all films and fiction are just fake stories, I believe. The book, "Gone with the wind" is a fictional book about the hardships of the U.S. South in the civil war. But the stories of the southern people suffering in that makes the book almost real to some people. If you insult "gone with the wind" around some southerners, They will angrily look at you like you have spitted on The Bible or their mother. My conclusion about my seeing this film? I dont know.
I guess if you have issues with violence, I strongly suggest that you be careful about what: action, war or violent films and shows you see. Also, even though You and I are of adult age, there are still films and fictions that can make you cry or make you feel completely miserable. I think I'll avoid anime films for awhile. That's not supposed to be a clever ending, I'm REALLY uncomfortable with anime right now. Oh well.
Hope you're all having a Good Day,
Rob