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Wicked bad! Have stopped any/all meds except levothyroxine (for thyroid) because body feels like it's trying to shut down; everything is screwed up in body since initiating then halting permanently now EMDR! Now, I'm only averaging for the past three nights maybe 3 hrs. sleep, SCARY! Have appointment on 5/22 with g.p. Was in e.r. week before last and said liver ok (although I never saw any liver enzymes blood work (ALT/AST) in paperwork! Liver (fatty) is throbbing on r/side (again) and thought I'd conquered this issue, NO! Colon (had major surgery 7/6) constipated and throughout EMDR was not eating properly for years ago dx's fatty liver and now OMG this issue has reared it's ugly head again, for I've been down this horrible road before and know the symptoms, due to poor food choices while enduring EMDR post sessions fallout (horrible symptoms i.e. extreme paranoia and panic, all of it.
I still have panic and fear just seems to be backing down a bit also I now from experience believe strongly that too many sessions and too long, and too close to EMDR machine can harm an individual and this is MY EXPERIENCE! Just like too much freaking ice cream, too many Oreo's heck even too much of ANYTHING is bad for the body, mind, etc. And I believe the same goes for EMDR sessions. There's a cap a freaking limit on what each flipping individual's mind and body can absorb and endure during each session (accumulative affect). I am not on any mission to change or alter anyone's experience and opinion re: EMDR. I'm just venting here. Unable to sleep hardly at all, all 5 senses are heightened to the max! Headaches, and I had back and foot pain but nothing like this poo prior to EMDR! All senses are heightened like I took a powerful mind-altering freaking drug or something! And I hope to God this is not permanent and I hope I haven't damaged my liver thus colon, etc. ad infinitum permanently either
For it seems like every system in my body has been horribly affected and I'm trying to deal with my body and mind trying to shut down on me! Can't describe this hockey any better; am desperately trying to slowly but steadily and naturally (foods, supplementation, etc.) abate all of these freaking physiological symptoms away i.e. gas, bloating, nausea, disoriented, fatigue, swollen liver - throbbing! five senses maxed out and causing me to panic (and I'm fighting panic and palps, and heart feeling like it's beating out of my ever loving chest! OMG! I hate EMDR - yes, it numbed (desensitized) many violent trauma event memories however, this price post sessions is too big of a freaking price to have to pay! TOO HIGH A PRICE!
I miss sleeping and feeling at least some rested, now I feel like a freaking cat on a HOT tin roof, literally. JJ
I still have panic and fear just seems to be backing down a bit also I now from experience believe strongly that too many sessions and too long, and too close to EMDR machine can harm an individual and this is MY EXPERIENCE! Just like too much freaking ice cream, too many Oreo's heck even too much of ANYTHING is bad for the body, mind, etc. And I believe the same goes for EMDR sessions. There's a cap a freaking limit on what each flipping individual's mind and body can absorb and endure during each session (accumulative affect). I am not on any mission to change or alter anyone's experience and opinion re: EMDR. I'm just venting here. Unable to sleep hardly at all, all 5 senses are heightened to the max! Headaches, and I had back and foot pain but nothing like this poo prior to EMDR! All senses are heightened like I took a powerful mind-altering freaking drug or something! And I hope to God this is not permanent and I hope I haven't damaged my liver thus colon, etc. ad infinitum permanently either
For it seems like every system in my body has been horribly affected and I'm trying to deal with my body and mind trying to shut down on me! Can't describe this hockey any better; am desperately trying to slowly but steadily and naturally (foods, supplementation, etc.) abate all of these freaking physiological symptoms away i.e. gas, bloating, nausea, disoriented, fatigue, swollen liver - throbbing! five senses maxed out and causing me to panic (and I'm fighting panic and palps, and heart feeling like it's beating out of my ever loving chest! OMG! I hate EMDR - yes, it numbed (desensitized) many violent trauma event memories however, this price post sessions is too big of a freaking price to have to pay! TOO HIGH A PRICE!
I miss sleeping and feeling at least some rested, now I feel like a freaking cat on a HOT tin roof, literally. JJ