Hi.
I'm just wondering how anyone copes with employment. The thought of getting a job bothers me because I feel like I'm not free to just flee at a moments notice when I get scared or my mind starts to slip back etc. The fact that I'm bound to that place where I would work.. that I have to get up and go to work even though I may be having a bad day... how to get out of it quick to be able to cope that particular day or days.
How do you get through that.
I want to work desperately but I keep telling myself that what if I need to flee.
All my jobs are around 3 months stints and then I think I make myself unwell so that I can be free from being at the job and then I can just go back home and curl in a ball and worry about money issues again.
I put an application in for a job and I was all happy and confident about it and now I'm paniking because what if they ring me up and want me to work... I'm freaking out about it.
I'd rather have no money than have to feel like I'm being held prisoner.
I'd rather have a job and a career where I feel like I fit in with society than to stay at home and dwell 356 days of the year.
How do I become part of society secretly without showing people the real me...
I'm so tired of putting on another mask but I need to start working.. is there any tips...
does anyone else have these issues??
thanks
I'm just wondering how anyone copes with employment. The thought of getting a job bothers me because I feel like I'm not free to just flee at a moments notice when I get scared or my mind starts to slip back etc. The fact that I'm bound to that place where I would work.. that I have to get up and go to work even though I may be having a bad day... how to get out of it quick to be able to cope that particular day or days.
How do you get through that.
I want to work desperately but I keep telling myself that what if I need to flee.
All my jobs are around 3 months stints and then I think I make myself unwell so that I can be free from being at the job and then I can just go back home and curl in a ball and worry about money issues again.
I put an application in for a job and I was all happy and confident about it and now I'm paniking because what if they ring me up and want me to work... I'm freaking out about it.
I'd rather have no money than have to feel like I'm being held prisoner.
I'd rather have a job and a career where I feel like I fit in with society than to stay at home and dwell 356 days of the year.
How do I become part of society secretly without showing people the real me...
I'm so tired of putting on another mask but I need to start working.. is there any tips...
does anyone else have these issues??
thanks