DogwoodTree
MyPTSD Pro
My question is...what markers or characteristics confirm for you at any given time that you are, in fact, not dissociated? How do you know when you're grounded or centered?
I feel like there's never, really, a connection between my inner world and the outer world. Either I'm deep inside my head and the rest of the world is either far away or intrusively painful...or I'm interacting with the surface through an empty shell of myself. There are times of deeper dissociative experiences, but this fundamental disconnect between inner/outer worlds goes on pretty much all the time.
When I'm "inside", it's very difficult to conceive of the outer world as being any more real than the thoughts or avatars or whatever in my head. When I'm "outside", it's very rare that I feel like I'm located in my body. I thought everyone saw themselves this way...floating outside, just behind my body, always watching what I'm doing and evaluating how I'm coming across or the impression I'm making on people.
I feel like there's never, really, a connection between my inner world and the outer world. Either I'm deep inside my head and the rest of the world is either far away or intrusively painful...or I'm interacting with the surface through an empty shell of myself. There are times of deeper dissociative experiences, but this fundamental disconnect between inner/outer worlds goes on pretty much all the time.
When I'm "inside", it's very difficult to conceive of the outer world as being any more real than the thoughts or avatars or whatever in my head. When I'm "outside", it's very rare that I feel like I'm located in my body. I thought everyone saw themselves this way...floating outside, just behind my body, always watching what I'm doing and evaluating how I'm coming across or the impression I'm making on people.