Mach123
MyPTSD Pro
I went to a therapist trained by Bessel (whatever that means) and I did not have a good experience but hopefully you have a good therapist. I read his book also. Now I am across the street at another place with my current therapist. Yes I beat around the bush for years. My last therapist that was not a trauma therapist and a male, I told very little. I tried but I couldn't. I had to get all the gory details out. He knew I had CSA and every once in awhile I'd say "I want to talk about sex," and he'd be like "finally?" I never really did though. I actually did something this week that was quite (different?) about sex in body work? I don't think I could ever have done that with anyone else? This week she was asking me where I felt a certain thing in my body and I said something and she said, "can you get in that position, or can you show me with your body what that feels like?" I did it. It didn't "bother me" but while I was doing it I was sort of "wow this is really it" or something. I mean I'm really telling (and showing) another person what really went on or how it made me feel? I know I disassociated a little while I was doing it? But I just kept going and it was fine. I want that stuff out I want to talk about it. She is gone a couple weeks now so I can just sit with it awhile.Good validation here. Thanks all. My t knows I am dumbstruck and he is trained by Bessel Van der Ko...