PreciousChild
MyPTSD Pro
I had a very intense, but I think good few weeks. I've been walking around like I have a big, open, raw wound in my brain, and my mood has been grating, uncomfortable, awkward, and I have been triggered a lot. Everything that happens seems to be triggering catastrophic thinking. I am still struggling with how to deal with this, but why do I say this is good? I feel that it's at least real, and that stuff I've been dissociating from is finally coming to the surface. It's my opportunity to embrace my other half.
I've been reading Healing Trauma, and I think I somehow have adopted ALL the adaptive styles of developmental trauma. Two things, among others, I'm working on is becoming more attuned to myself and also TRUSTING. I have been more or less successful in my career and can usually be socially appropriate, which I have always thought of as a great success. But I know that it would be even better if I could live an authentic life and not be afraid that being myself will make people abandon me.
At the same time, it wouldn't being healthy or beneficial to me to let out all my emotions in any context. I had a moment when I realized how fuzzy I was about this matter. I have a special needs child who has trouble always being socially appropriate, and I talk to him a lot about transforming socially inappropriate impulses towards more socially acceptable ones.
Anybody want to share how they approach authenticity?
Also, I have lived so long distorting my identity, is there such a thing as an authentic self still there? Isn't it, intellectually speaking, a social construct anyway?
I've been reading Healing Trauma, and I think I somehow have adopted ALL the adaptive styles of developmental trauma. Two things, among others, I'm working on is becoming more attuned to myself and also TRUSTING. I have been more or less successful in my career and can usually be socially appropriate, which I have always thought of as a great success. But I know that it would be even better if I could live an authentic life and not be afraid that being myself will make people abandon me.
At the same time, it wouldn't being healthy or beneficial to me to let out all my emotions in any context. I had a moment when I realized how fuzzy I was about this matter. I have a special needs child who has trouble always being socially appropriate, and I talk to him a lot about transforming socially inappropriate impulses towards more socially acceptable ones.
Anybody want to share how they approach authenticity?
Also, I have lived so long distorting my identity, is there such a thing as an authentic self still there? Isn't it, intellectually speaking, a social construct anyway?